What an odd month I've had. The exhaustion seems to be gone, until it's not.
My sober daughter has been so ill and I have been wrapped up in her care with both my time and finances. My oldest daughter is expecting her first child in March. My son is mostly clean and still holding the job he got last October.
I have put on 27 lbs. I just can't stand it although I continue to eat. Three months without smoking but obsessing daily about it.
My blogger friends have been on my mind, in my heart and always in my prayers. I have so much to say but I just cannot write my feelings down for some reason. Everything I feel seems so private and not just private from this public forum but private also from my friends and family. I've never been able to overcome the belief of being "noble" when we bare everything in silence. Opening this blog brings on discomfort because of the restraints I've placed on myself about what I can and cannot talk about, the rules I've established for the right and wrong way to feel. sigh.
I am wishing everyone a warm, safe and joy filled season.