It amazes me that we can all live with ourselves 24 hours a day and still feel perplexed at our own decision making skills. I live in the Land of Self Amazement. It is a territory riddled with the mentally ill, self obsessed, and no-to-low self esteemed humans. I am the Queen of this land and rule from a prone position while napping as an escape. OK...enough play-like. Now days they say "let's pretend" but we always said "let's play like."
2012 was the year of oxygen machines, blood pressure cuffs, dental appointments, smoking cessation and extreme weight gain. Ahhh good times.
I'm not good at new years resolutions, but I do love a clean calendar and notebook. I like running my hands over a fresh clean page, smelling the paper, notebooks in all shades of blue and purple. I have never once bought a yellow notebook......uggggg.
My heart is mushy these days. Too many worries and fears, surrendered and then grabbed back and clutched with iron fingers. It seems my adult children cannot even get a paper cut without me falling to the floor with chest pains and rocketing blood pressure. I think God is going to do a lot of work on me in 2013. I hope he gives me anesthesia or at least some pain killers along the way. I just feel fragile.
Loving you all and wishing you a Happy New Year.