Friday, March 9, 2012
Still protesting TITLE pressure
I went to see Dr. Hello Kitty yesterday to get my refills for asthma meds. She seemed to think that maybe my chronic smoking could be playing a part in my asthma. I told her it was an interesting theory and that I would think about stopping. Yeah, kind of like 2 years ago when I stopped for 18 months and gained 45 lbs. I have been smoking for 41 years. I just need one more cigarette is usually how I start the day. Just one more.
It's party weekend next door with some out of town guests who bring their karaoke machine with 2500 songs. I will pop in and out to get my "OMG!- you should be making lots of money singing" fix. This is always said by people who did not spend most of their lives in and out of different bands, bars and auditions.
Well..........damn. I am flawed in so many areas. How lucky am I that many years ago, God used some other flawed people to come up with some simple steps to follow........a path leading right out of the nightmare of alcoholism and addiction. Willingness is the only thing I had to bring to the table. There are many other areas in my life that I could apply the steps to as well (see paragraph one above) but without the key of willingness.....well you know.