Wednesday, March 14, 2012

I don't wanna

Oh lordy I have to return to work today.  I feel like a third grader wanting to hold the thermometer under warm water and complain of a strange stomach ache. I have no idea where this aversion to work has come from.  I have a feeling that once I sit down at my familiar desk, it will all go away.  I'm thinking that I need to get a friend to call my cell phone around 9:30am with a fake emergency call, just in case I absolutely must get up and run away.  Jeez, my job has become a blind date.

 I may need to go into extreme simplicity mode, which is one foot in front of the other.  I am simply afraid of everything.  I remember about a year ago being on the 2nd step of a small step ladder I have had for years and for the first time, I knew better than to "jump" down.  I had always jumped down, but I knew instinctively that the landing was going to be too jarring or just plain dangerous.  I'm having that kind of's just to jarring to jump into life and I don't wanna!  Dammit.


Marcia said...

it's always nice to have an escape plan.

Mary Christine said...

Oh honey, I am sorry. Do you want me to call you at 9:30?

Mary LA said...

I'd call you in a shot Pam, let me know. Yup, I know that feeling about being on a small step ladder and not wanting to step down.

A big hug for you.

Syd said...

Pammie, it is good to have a back up plan. I can be one--just tell them you discovered a long lost relative in SC and you need to come for a visit. Or that you have to wash your cat (or Theo).

I'm pulling for you. I had many a day that I felt I could not stand another staff meeting or director's meeting. I wanted to run. Eventually, I got to do just that in retirement.

Scott W said...

This Too Shall Pass.

It always does.

Annette said...

Oh Pammie...I am sad for you today. ((HUG))

bugerlugs63 said...

I so know that feeling . . I like how you put it. Where on earth does it suddenly come from?

I got it today . . . "Out of the blue" all the stuff that I've been planning/dealing with like a normal grown up all seems very frightening, daunting.
Like, what was I thinking making dental appointments etc? Where's that woman from yesterday? Come back . . . quick!
I'm glad it's not just me but I really hope it passes soon.