Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Today has got to be better
I have a fascination with fancy or just unique laundry rooms. I've always wanted a "special" place to do laundry.
Every day brings some new and unexpected catastrophes to sober daughter and I have had to bite my tongue over the last few days to keep from writing about them here. At this point, writing about it is making it bigger in my head and so I need to back off from that right now.
So, for this day I've planed a lunch with my sponsee who just picked up her 18 month chip. I am going to another sponsees house at 7:00pm tonight and we are starting a BB study. I am going to give my all at my job today.
My daughters' pain has become my own. For me, it is bringing on an intense need for relief. I am a drug addict and I understand what relief feels like. I am also a child of God and I understand the relief I get when I go to him for comfort, when I work with another addict, and when I seek his will instead of seeking Ray Ray on the corner.
I really NEED today to be better than yesterday when both daughters reached out to me in pain.
If I need a better today then I have to be the one to make it so. I can't just "hope" to feel better, I have to take action. And I will.