Friday, December 16, 2011

Friday night up-date

Thank you for all the kind comments this morning during my melt down.

It seems the retina doc can not get an OR until Friday Dec. 23.  Sober daughter has been NPO since last night and driving all over town for blood work, back to doctor and such.  While waiting at the eye doctor this morning her OB/Gyn called her cell phone.  They said her re-check last week on her 2nd pap in the last 30 days was not good and they want her in the office on Monday morning for tests and consult.  Really??  She said she could not because she has a torn retina to deal with, they said it was imperative she come.  Really ???  What now?

After I blogged this morning, I went to my car to go to work and the battery was dead.....just throwing that in here folks.

OK.....no, I really don't have people I can call to help. I have never really let any of my sponsees in on my personal life because I don't work with many women that are functioning on that level.  I have never had anyone from the program in my home because my husband drinks and I don't feel comfortable with having people over. 

Because of the moved surgery date to Friday, I feel now I can go over there this weekend, work on her house and laundry and then it won't be so hard next week when I'm there.  Plus, I have off work that Friday and the following Monday.

Tonight, I am thinking.........how awesome that God has allowed us to catch all these problems in time for her to get help.  My stress is self induced because of my love and concern for her, and wanting to be helpful.  God has shown up every single morning this week and got me through this and I can not see any reason why that will stop.

I love my blogger friends...........and it is so nice to have a place to spew all this.

8 comments:

Patty said...

We love you too....

Mary LA said...

Pam, I hear you -- and yes somehow it will all work out. Your daughter is in my thoughts. I've had that kind of retinal surgery and it is tough recuperating at first but the good news is that the retina heals very quickly.

Sending you love and concern and hopefulness.

Annette said...

When I read this I just thought...."who would have thought?" Who would have thought that you don't feel like you can share your *real* life with your sponsees and I *assumed* that your house was filled with program friends and you were all laughing and having a great time and I was always kind of envious. It never even occurred to me that maybe you didn't have that going on. It made me feel kind of honored that you "spewed" where I could read it and be a part of comforting you...hopefully. lol It showed me once again, "don't assume."

Pam, I wish I was closer. I really do. I would take the week off of work to jump in and help you and your girl. It would be my privilege. All I have to offer from here is do the next right thing just for the next 15 minutes. Then start again for the next 15 minutes. Love you Pam. ((HUG))

Mary Christine said...

Thank you for sharing this Pammie. You have helped me tremendously this morning.

Still praying for you and your baby girl.
Love you, Mary

Syd said...

Pam, I too am hoping that all will be okay. I would be there with Annette to help you out if I were closer. And I also think that you are an awesome person.

Lou said...

Damn, you are really bringing out the fixer in me.

Glad the surgery is postponed, everyone can take a breath. Guess all I can do right now is pray..and listen.

Anonymous said...

I am praying here for you and have a prayer candle lit. Praying for strength for you. And for a little garden gnome to come along and clean those dishes. :)

~ Hope

StaZ said...

I love you so much Pam. I love soberdaughter too. God how I wish I was there and could be of some kind of assistance or comfort. I'm always with you in my thoughts. You are the STRONGEST person I know. Keep going. Keep doing. Keep staying in the day. Keep the faith. I love you....