Wednesday, November 2, 2011
November starts the holiday months and makes me feel like I'm in a garlic press. This year will be much easier since we will not be heading north for Christmas but staying home instead. I see the two sentences I've just written but it's not what's on my mind at all, it's just words to fill the blog page. I'm gripped in fear about my daughter, a strangle hold actually. What's next? You know that feeling? It's the one where you can't relax about the disaster that just passed because you realize the naivety of thinking it's all good now. I just want to take a huge black magic marker and write on the length of my body "I CAN NOT LIVE IN A WORLD WITHOUT HER" then maybe God will see it and fully understand that he needs to listen to me about this! There....I wrote down how I feel.