I'm not able to comment on your blogs this morning (?) I'm not sure if this will publish either.
I think I am having plain old age, maybe hormone issues. I wish Mother were around so I could ask her.
I had my four day vacation but it's over. I read two books, took 3 naps, swam for hours, potted a dozen new plants but it's over. My husband says that another weekend is right around the corner but it's a long damn block. I don't know why I don't want to leave home. I don't know why the thought of going into work this morning is weighing on me like a brick. I just don't know why.
I did not answer my phone for four damn days. That's craziness. Well, if it had been my children, I would have.
It "feels" like the only place that drama can not come into my life is in the back yard. I used to hate drama but now I fear it. I don't feel competent to solve anything for anyone. If you created it, then you fix it.
I see my grandma's face when I look in the mirror. I loved my grandma but I don't really want her face, ya know? That doesn't really bother me but I thought I'd throw it in as a fact of how things are right now.
It's kind of like a pity party only without the sad part, just the confused...what the hell?....part.
I'm not sure what would be happening right now if I did not have God to turn to or if I was drunk....yuck, it would really be awful.
I think it's an "aging" thing......Mama would know.