Tuesday, September 20, 2011

It's Me

My goodness, people just came out of the woodwork to wish me well yesterday here in blogville!  Isn't it a different world?  It's kind of like we are a bunch of pen pals without the lag time of the mail service.

Everything went very well.  The doctor said my heart looked fine and they do not know what the chest pains are about.  Of course that's great news, but as a recovered addict.....I got all paranoid that someone would think I was making it up.....ya know?  I feel good this morning but my groin area is sore as hell.  I go back to work tomorrow.

Something else is has been on my heart.  I'll make the story short.  I have had a friend named "V" since the age of 18....many many years.  My youngest daughter and her only child were born one month apart.  Her son "E" was the ultimate troubled kid.  He was always in trouble for stealing and when he became a teenager it was alcohol and stealing, then pot and stealing then harder drugs and stealing cars.  He went to prison at the age of 23 and got out four months ago.  He is 29 years old.  My friend "V" has defended this boy and tried desperately to help him in all the ways that we all know of.  When he got out of prison four months ago, her family rallied around him.  Her brothers got him a job, she made him a room in her home and everyone was happy to see him clean and sober.  Friday night he decided to get high on crack and I'm not sure on what else.....but he went to his mother "V" and started demanding money to go get more dope and she refused.  He stabbed her multiple times, finally slitting her throat completely and killing her.  We are all so devastated by this.  Her family is in so much pain.  Losing her and "E" basically on the same night.  They have not gone to the jail to see him yet but they know they must.  They know that "V" would be so concerned about him. They do not live in Texas and I wish I could be there with them.  This is so heartbreaking. 

Thank you for all the kind words and prayers during my procedure.

14 comments:

Mary LA said...

I'm thrillled you're back and OK -- such terrible news though, a tragedy.

Rest well Pammie.

StaZ said...

Horrifying news! So very sorry. I am so glad your procedure went well. Love and hugs.

Mary Christine said...

Oh Pammie, that is the saddest thing. I am so so so sorry to hear of your loss.

But so glad to hear that you and your beautiful heart are OK.
xoxoxoxoxoxox, mc.

Syd said...

Pammie, I am glad that you are okay with the physical aspects of your heart. I am sorry that your heart is aching for the loss of your friend and the terrible thing that her son did. I suppose that we never know what will happen. All anyone can do is live with love in our hearts instead of hate. It sounds as if V lived with love in her heart. Take care, my friend.

Anonymous said...

So glad your heart is okay on a physical level. It must be aching on the emotional level though. Hugs.

~ Hope

dAAve said...

I knew you'd be OK.
The other news? I have no words.

Kristin H. said...

This is a horrifying tragedy. A coworker of mine has gone through something similar and I have had a front row seat to the fallout. I am so sorry for your loss.

And wasn't Friday when you were having your chest pains?

I'm glad you are out of the hospital...

Lou said...

There are no words..but I like what Syd said. We can't (I can't) live life in fear of what may happen. She sounds like a mom..and I bet she did much for the rest of her family and friends also. A horrible situation.

I'm glad your heart is strong and clear, so that you may be a comfort to those who need you.

kel said...

I really really hate addiction and the brutality and violence it can bring. I am so very sad to hear of your loss... But happy your heart phycially strong... lots of love....

Patty/calmacceptance said...

I have no words today, just lots of big hugs.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Pam}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Anath said...

So sorry for your loss, Pammie..

Marcia said...

thanks for letting us know...glad you survived sorry to hear about your friend, heartbreaking indeed.

Christina said...

May God bless V in her eternal home. This is heart breaking....Im so sorry.

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

OMG This awful disease is SO GRRRRR!!!!! Sometimes I just want to scream!

God bless V for her dedication and love, for bringing her son an unconditional experience of ultimate sacrifice for his sake.

For the son she knew, not the diseased man that did that to her, she was loving the son she knew and she died for his sake.

The amazing part is, that she did see him and so did her family for a short time. God be with him as he continues to wrestle with that disease! That horrible debilitating ugly disease.