Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Let's Just Be Kind Today
I've had to do all kinds of step work and prayer to get over being mad about something someone said in a meeting four days ago. This guy says stupid stuff all the time and I have just been ignoring him for years so I have no idea why "this time" it made me mad. Sometimes I'm sensitive to every thing around me and other times the world just rolls right off me. I think I'm experiencing "moods". Yahoo, moods and hot flashes, ain't life grand.
For some reason I'm really looking forward to my new comer meeting tonight. There is never less than 75 people at this meeting and at least 65 are forced to be there. When my heart is in the right place, I can always find a young woman swimming in desperation and entirely ready to open her mind to the possibility that life can be different. I am just drawn to that pain. I've often wondered if somewhere deep inside my spirit that by hugging these women I am somehow hugging the old pain in me and reliving the time when I hurt so deeply and strangers came and wrapped their arms around me and told me it would be OK. I felt so unlovable and that is an awful pain. We have the opportunity to offer a soothing balm to the very souls of the newcomer.
Let's just be kind today....k?