Sunday, July 17, 2011

Just Venting

I'm so frustrated y'all!
I can not get motivated.
I'm living half-assed.
I painted all day yesterday, nonsensical pages of blues and purples and white acrylic paint.  Useless really when you think about it.  Painting a wall in the house would be something productive but it would have to be one color with out all the little dots and swirls that I enjoyed doing.
Good grief my life is consumed with guilt for every minute spent NOT doing something that I SHOULD be doing.  If I clean the kitchen then I should have been doing the laundry.  If I vacuum the carpet then I should have been mopping the tile.  If I work in the yard then I should have been cleaning out the car.  I am bullying my own self.  I am criticizing my actions and monitoring my thoughts like a prison guard.
Maybe I said "kiss my ass" a little too soon.
Today is my home group meeting and I don't want to go.
OK, just venting.
I will work this out.
Tomorrow is a work day...where at least I know what to do.


Marcia said...

thanks for the vent! Personally, I think dots and swirls would look GREAT on a wall. :)

Syd said...

Screw guilt! That's what we say in Al-Anon.

Lou said...

Maybe another "nude swim" would help...

dAAve said...

Don't worry. I won't beat up on you.
You're doing a fine job by yourself.

Mary Christine said...

I hope you find peace at work tomorrow.

ScottF said...

this too shall pass, and stop "shoulding" all over yourself!

Annette said...