Wednesday, June 15, 2011
I So Dislike Pretending
I had a very tense afternoon and evening with my daughter. She ran out of three of her meds and waited until the withdrawal symptoms started before calling me for help in navigating the doctors office, pharmacy, insurance etc. There was crying and pleading and promises and the gut wrenching drama that goes along with mothering a mentally ill adult child. On the flip side, my son has been staying with her for a month and he looked healthier than I've seen him in a couple of years. He was meth-free....for now. I'm fine with "for now", I've learned through experience that all sorts of miraculous changes happen in the "now."
It's very odd when I'm the mentally healthiest person in the room!
We have a new "big dawg" where I work. He has one eye that looks straight ahead and one that can't make up it's mind. If he were in the program I would simply ask him which was his good eye so I would know where to look when speaking to him, but everyone was whispering about which eye to look into and of course no one was addressing it with him. I so dislike pretending out in the real world of normies.
God presented me with a difficult day yesterday and then walked me through it. I'm certain the same will hold true for today.