Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Finding My Place

I'm not new to blogging.  If you are new to stopping by here then HI.  I blogged everyday for four years about my life in sobriety until one of my children became "distant" because of some stuff I shared here.  I didn't sneak off in the night, I told everyone I was leaving and I removed (and saved) four years of writing.  I continued to read a lot of my regular blog roll.  I have no idea why I changed my URL address but kept the same blog title.  After blogging again now for a couple of weeks I find myself biting my tongue a lot which believe me is a good thing.  I forgot how hard it is to write daily without revealing too much about ourselves.

I miss ranting here.  You have NO IDEA how I'm holding it all in :-)  Like I said yesterday, I have not found my groove again.  Do I want to blog about my daily life?  Do I want to blog about "the program?"  Do I want to blog about being an addict?"  Most days I just want to blog about things I disagree with in YOUR blogs....how crazy is that?

I am not interested in being an example of how to stay sober, so then what am I interested in adding to the sober blogging community?  I'm just not quite sure yet.


kel said...

Pammie, I for one am so happy to see you back. I too have recently started blogging again after a short hiartus, although prior to that I was only blogging maybe one every month or so. It is hard to find my voice again, and I am not sure what I am looking for this time around again.

I know that I do miss alot of the old bloggers, and yours was always one of my favorites. Whether it was following your journey in sobriety, you sharing the stories of how you got here, and most of all your sense of humor and your rants!! I loved reading stories about your beloved Mamma and the things she would say.

I like to think that our blogs are our own, and we can use them for whatever we want. It's just a little piece of the blogshpere that we can speak freely.

And I dont think you are crazy at all. This blogger loves and missed you and is so glad to see you back. I hope you stay...

Anonymous said...

I get where you're coming from, Pam.

I made a decision from the very beginning not to blog about my family for several reasons. One of which is that I found it distasteful when I would read some of the Mommy Blogs and see them bitching about their kids and husbands on a regular basis.

I started out as a Mommy Blog and it simply didn't gel with who I was as a recovering person. If I had a problem in my home life, then the mature, sober thing to do would be to confront my issue directly, allow that person their privacy to handle it their way, and then move on with the business of living.

Yet I was reading blogs where women were calling their kids names, throwing their husband under the bus, and basically just calling attention to themselves. It wasn't God centered behaviour.

Make no mistake, I had plenty of rants in me and would blog occasionally about the ghetto nonsense in my neighborhood and the random bad day, but I tried to leave my family out of it. Most would be surprised to find out that I have actually been separated from my husband for a year and a half and have yet to write about it. The bottom line is that I don't have his permission and don't see the point in asking for it. He is a 'no go' subject on my blog. I choose to stick with recovery.

Anyway, enough out of me. I'm glad you're back. You are an inspiration in the recovery community and you were missed. Believe me.

Syd said...

Rant Pam. You can let me know what you think at any time. I still think of your "stink eye" and what your Mama would say.

Andrew said...

I don't know what is happening here, but according to blogger I got a whole truckload of your posts all at once, dating from March 22nd.

Whatever, I'm glad you are back blogging Pam. Now I have a lot to catch up on. I'm glad I have the time these days.