Wednesday Morning

I worked a very long day yesterday, and today won't be much better.  So many deadlines lately at work and never enough time to finish.  I spent an hour with one of our engineers whose accent is so thick that most of the time I heard myself saying "oh yes, I see...ok...got it."  I didn't "get" a lot of it but could no longer ask him to repeat himself.  I also spent about 15 frustrating minuets with one of our brilliant scientists who has no social skills, can not dress himself properly and spent a long time explaining the molecular structure of the coffee maker to me.  I just wanted him to pass the little plastic stir straw, which as it turns out has an intricate manufacturing process that I now have rattling in my brain!

With the seasons changing, I'm having a difficult time sticking to my paints since the yard is calling me to dig in the dirt. Soon, it will be too hot outside to do much so I'm going to enjoy it while I can.

My prayers lately have been to ask God to help me love myself more, thinking that this could be the way to move forward in my quest for being a non-smoker and a walker and a thinner person.  I have always had a problem with the whole "self love" thing.  It seems to self centered or something.  But smoking and over eating is pretty self centered too I suppose.  Abandoning myself to God just seems too scary right now, so I keep my prayers to specifics.  This really doesn't work for me in the long run, but it's the best I have today.

Being kind to all, including myself.................for today.