There are two guys running most of the other guys off from my home group. Maybe I've known this and did not want to confront them, maybe I used them to practice "live and let live." It's all of a sudden very obvious to me and I don't have a clue how to handle it. It may not even be my issue to handle, but then again, I'm getting an awful lot of phone calls about them. I'll pray about that situation.
I'm really tired of this fat girl phase I've been in and want it to go away. I'm really tired of this not going to the doctor phase I've been in and I want it to go away as well. I'm really kind of tired of me lately. I'm kind of stuck. I'm really tired of not addressing the stuck place. It's like there is a whole lot of me to deal with and I would rather turn my attention to others. Sometimes this is good and sometimes it causes me to fall behind in my own care. It's like getting behind in the laundry so far that it seems like an impossible job to catch up. That's where I am with my health.....there are just too many things that need my attention and all of them will require me to take time off of work and cost money. I'll pray about this as well.
I was so surprised at the amount of birthday wishes I got here yesterday! I rather enjoyed that!
I have a lot of faulty wiring in my head. I did not live an admirable life before I got sober, and I made a lot of bad decisions during the first 10 years of sobriety and beyond. God makes room for the willing I guess because he still keeps the obsession to use at bay, and has all the power necessary to help me out of this stuck place as soon as I'm willing enough. I'm so grateful to be sober and have a chance at something better.