Mary Christine wrote such and excellent (post) yesterday.
I want to piggy back off this statement:
It is my experience that once I took any alcohol whatever into my body, I had no control over the amount of alcohol I would drink or what would happen to me once I drank it. And furthermore, it is my experience that I seemed to have no control over taking that first drink, thereby setting up this whole pathology. I do not believe I ever picked up a drink and said "I choose to drink today."
People in and outside our beautiful program have such a misunderstanding of the word powerless. Powerlessness is not an outside circumstance or condition, it is at the very core of our addiction. When every single cell of my body screamed "I do not EVER want to do this again!", I did it anyway. When I would hold my children, beg forgiveness and promise it would never happen again, it happened again.
Do people really believe that millions of drunks and drug addicts just woke up one day and decided to find God? Really? God was the last choice for most of us.
Powerlessness = no power, no choice over the next high
God = power
With God, we have all the power we need to stay clean and sober. Without God, we become powerless again and powerless people will drink again because they are powerless not to. It is the pathology set in motion once again that Mary writes about.
Powerlessness does not mean permission by any means, but the still suffering alcoholic and addict will never seek the power of God until they can internalize (inner most self) the true meaning of powerless. Sometimes we refer to this as "the light coming on in their eyes." It is a profound sense of freedom when the alcoholic or addict digests the idea that of themselves they are without power to stop the madness, "but there is one who has all power - that One is God. May you find him now."