Thursday, September 1, 2011

I'm Bugging Me




I have this big new thing at work that I don't want to sit still and learn.  It seems overwhelming, it seems unnecessary, it seems like my brain doesn't have enough space to process it.  I dislike feeling defeated before I begin.

I'm not doing my best these days, it's hot as hell and I'm all selfish about my time.  I have not been to my meetings this week, my laundry is piled high, my floors are dirty, my car needs repairs. My body needs repairs.  I'm a slacker.  My job seems to be sucking all the energy out of me these days and when I get home I want to sit with my latest art endeavor and be left alone.  I can almost sense my husband tip-toeing around me.

Things are bugging me.  People just being themselves are bugging me.  I'm bugging me.  I'm hitting the thrift stores on my lunch break everyday buying old soft vintage pillowcases. I'm obsessed with them.  A dollar a piece every where and they all have this fabulous smell and the softness of the old washed cotton is calling me in some bizarre chant.  I've purchased dozens in the last week alone.  I must make something out of them but that hasn't been revealed to me yet.

Maybe today I'll just embrace my "weirdness" and be where I am.  It might prove to be the easier softer way.

7 comments:

Mary Christine said...

Embrace it Pammie, embrace it.

Kristin H. said...

My parents, in central Texas, have been having the same thoughts. I think the heat and lack of rain has pretty much fried their brains. You all need some fall and winter, really quick.

(((Pammie)))

Lou said...

My husband has been feeling like this about his job. He does not want to learn anything new either. He says it's because he has been at it too long and he is burned out. Any way you could work at home one day or week? Would they let you work four 10 hour days?

I have long felt you should be more selfish with your time.

Re brother: Don't they just continue to surprise the hell out of you.

Syd said...

When people bug me, then I know that I am really bugged out and not in touch with my spiritual side. I've slipped back into the old ways. Sigh...I know what to do and am getting to a meeting.

dAAve said...

Just be.

Mary LA said...

The potential of old soft vintage pillow cases!

Marcia said...

dozens? wow. I wonder what they will become....