Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Trying again

I got to my job at 7:00am yesterday and "sneaked" out leaving a note saying that I was ill at 8:30am.

I came home, got in my bed and stayed until supper time last night, ate and went back to bed.

This is what I know:
  • Opening my email at work and seeing all my responsibilities glaring at me, sent me into a full panic.
  • I felt completely and totally overwhelmed.
  • After sleeping for 8 hours yesterday, after a full nights sleep mind you, I decided that the intense physical pain of my abscessed tooth over the weekend had colored everything black in my thinking.
  • I did not pay attention to how "squashed down" the pain had made my spirit.
  • I am not able to carry on as if nothing has happened when I suffer pain.  I have always needed a few days to recoup from an injury, that is how "I am" and I forgot.  I also suffered an emotional blow a few day before as well, that I'm not comfortable writing about here.
  • I went back to bed after supper last night and slept through till this morning.  I feel stronger and more myself.
  • I can not compare myself to others in this situation, I need to accept that this is the way I am and not get all crazy about missing a day of work.
  • I can do my best today.  I can ask God for simple direction.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Awww..you felt so bad about leaving work. I'm glad you took care of yourself. You have to rest the body to get better.

Don't compare yourself to others, you are a one of kind Pammie!

Mary LA said...

Pam I have the same thing with eye pain because there is a rare glaucoma in my blind eye that scares me. I have to go very slowly and sit in the bath for a long time and go to bed early. Panic and pain is a horrible combination.

You are the best judge of what you need. I hope you feel better today.

Mary Christine said...

Pammie, I am sorry that you are dealing with pain (which makes it impossible to deal with anything else!), panic, and an emotional blow. If there is anything I can do, please let me know. I am only a phone call or e-mail away.

Syd said...

Emotional pain is the one that made me unable to function at work--I simply would go through the motions but was really "not there". I hope that all the pains go away soon.

Anonymous said...

I agree with Mary Christine. When dealing with pain it is next to impossible to focus on anything else. And a good bout of sleep is perfect for everybody.

Anonymous said...

Glad you are feeling more yourself today Pam-a-lang-a-ding-dong.
{{{{Pam}}}}

Marcia said...

Pain drains me too, pain of any kind. Glad you were able to take care of yourself.